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Showing posts with label Struggles. Show all posts
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Friday, April 20, 2012

can't we just be satisfied already

con·tent  [kuhn-tent] 
adj
satisfied with what one is or has; not wanting more or anything else.
 
 
 
 Father help me:
To be satisfied with where I am. Right now. Not wanting what someone else has. Not wishing today away for the hopes of tomorrow. To be grateful for what I've been given. To not look backwards. To stay focused on what You decide to give me now.  To realize how blessed I truly am. To stay grounded. To stay humbled. To be satisfied with me. To be at peace with the present. To stop wanting so much. To stop my selfish desires. To be content in all things.
That's my prayer today. For myself & for you. 

 
 
Versus I'm clinging to:
 
You're blessed when you're content with just who you are—no more, no less. That's the moment you find yourselves proud owners of everything that can't be bought.

So, chosen by God for this new life of love, dress in the wardrobe God picked out for you: compassion, kindness, humility, quiet strength, discipline. Be even-tempered, content with second place, quick to forgive an offense. Forgive as quickly and completely as the Master forgave you. And regardless of what else you put on, wear love. It's your basic, all-purpose garment. Never be without it.
 
So be content with who you are, and don't put on airs. God's strong hand is on you; he'll promote you at the right time. Live carefree before God; he is most careful with you.
 
[ Content Whatever the Circumstances ] I'm glad in God, far happier than you would ever guess—happy that you're again showing such strong concern for me. Not that you ever quit praying and thinking about me. You just had no chance to show it. Actually, I don't have a sense of needing anything personally. I've learned by now to be quite content whatever my circumstances. I'm just as happy with little as with much, with much as with little. I've found the recipe for being happy whether full or hungry, hands full or hands empty. Whatever I have, wherever I am, I can make it through anything in the One who makes me who I am. I don't mean that your help didn't mean a lot to me—it did. It was a beautiful thing that you came alongside me in my troubles.
 
When you're invited to dinner, go and sit at the last place. Then when the host comes he may very well say, 'Friend, come up to the front.' That will give the dinner guests something to talk about! What I'm saying is, If you walk around with your nose in the air, you're going to end up flat on your face. But if you're content to be simply yourself, you will become more than yourself.
 
Do you want to stand out? Then step down. Be a servant. If you puff yourself up, you'll get the wind knocked out of you. But if you're content to simply be yourself, your life will count for plenty.
 
I've kept my feet on the ground, I've cultivated a quiet heart. Like a baby content in its mother's arms, my soul is a baby content.
 
 
AMEN

Tuesday, April 17, 2012

silence

I would like to think I'm an optimist. 
Someone who see's things as "half-full".
Who loves looking at the bright side of situations.
Who lives in the lightness and love of this wonderful life.

And, I feel that way 98% of the time. 
[the other 2% is pure hell. literally]

Only when I let things quiet down
--as in become complacent with God --
do things get ugly.
{-Stop praying -Put Him on the back burner -Put everything/everyone else first}



When SILENCE hits
Satan takes hold & RUNs...or rather pulls.
And, he does so with great intensity & force. 


The struggle sets in.
Its tends to make me extremely uncomfortable & uneasy. 
It can open doors & crack windows in my mind that would probably be best kept shut. 
My minds always ends up in a darker place than I'd like to admit. 
I turn into a "half-empty" monster. 
I start focusing on the negative.


I get completely FOCUSED:
on what isn't.
on what I should've done differently. 
on the mistakes.
on the regrets.
on all things that I can't change!


Satan is a strong being. 
He grabs onto this and attaches himself to it like a 1000lb weight on my ankles. 


It's a downward spiral. 
Like a staircase that doesn't stop going down. 
Further & further into the abyss.

I get so lost in the darkness that it's hard to remember that I live in the light. 
I have to claw & fight my way back out. 

BUT--FIGHT I DO!

I refuse to let Satan win.
I refuse to let Satan keep that foothold on my life. My mind. 
I refuse to let Satan keep me down.

No way.
Not a chance.

I am a fighter.
I don't like excuses.
I won't let him keep me down. [For long.]

I quickly have to kick my own butt into gear. 
Snap out of it & move forward.

Can't live in the past. 
Gotta live for today. 
Gotta live for the present.
Gotta live for the promises my God has made me for. 


 Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

AMEN!