lately

So....I've been absent for quite some time. It's not that I haven't wanted to blog, it's literally been a lack of time. Not content. So much has been happening...in my extended family, my immediate family, and just in my life in general. Some good, some bad, some just flat crazy! 

Let me go ahead and "beep beep, back it up" for you....and fill ya in.

Ever feel like you are on a roller coaster that won't stop?!

That's where I'm at right now. I literally have had to stop and debate with myself about what day it is. Things have been such a whirlwind in our house the past month or so. I seriously haven't been grocery shopping in [going on] 4 weeks. Haven't done laundry in 3. And haven't been home [more than one night a week] before 10pm.

Juggling my commitments is becoming a full time job!

My husband is working like a maniac due to some pretty big changes at our company. [He has always worked hard, especially during this time of year. but, when someone leaves, he is there to pick up the slack and run with it! i.e. we run a family business!]  I probably won't ever (well, anytime soon) make my husband not work so hard. It's in his blood. Part of his DNA. It's just what he does. And I love and appreciate that about him. His drive and dedication to the business that his dad built is admirable. He only wants to continue the legacy that has been in our town for 30 years. And, in this season we are in right now, slowing down isn't in the cards. 

I'm very thankful that I'm able to just hold on for the ride for the time being.

I would be lying if I said "I wouldn't change a thing though" because I most certainly would. I would want more time with my husband, and more time with my family & friends.

As for me, I'm still nannying [albeit part time], trying to build momentum in my Arbonne business & just planned an amazing event for A21 that took place on June 24th. (EXTREMELY proud of this & will fill you in on more later!) I'm really busting it with my Arbonne business. Trying to build it up so I can focus my time and energy on something that I feel is much more important than myself, The A21 Campaign. I love and believe in Arbonne with all my heart. I wouldn't work for a company unless I believed in the foundations of it, the people I work for, and the products we produce/sell. I wouldn't introduce people to products that were not genuinely good for them, inside and out, and these are exactly that. I'm not going to pursue something like this if it can't be a blessing for others. As for The A21 Campaign--well, if you know me, you know that it is my heart beat. God placed a huge burden on my heart for it, and opened the doors--and by open, I mean, opened them wide-and I couldn't feel more blessed. 

Have you ever felt like you knew you were created for something, 

but could never put a finger on it, and then all of a sudden, it was like 

"BAM"?! 

Right smack in front of your face like a brick wall....?? 

Well, yeah. That has been my experience with A21 thus far. 

I have no idea what the future looks like for this, 

but God does, and I'm certainly willing to trust His will!! 

You know you are on the right path when the enemy starts to rear his snarky little  head. The "enemy" is always hard at work when you are following Gods plan for your life. I wish I could say that this surprises me, but it just doesn't.  And, let me tell you.....I've never felt more attacked than I have in the past few months as this A21 launch event was creeping up. (And you better believe it was an even deeper confirmation that I was doing what God has called me to do!!) 

The enemy hit. 

And he hit with a vengeance. 

Never letting up. 

Causing what could've been major distraction, and a cause for me to walk away, but it never happened. Instead, I dug deeper. I pushed harder. I fought back. I found something inside, deep inside, that carried me through all of it. [{Faith. Hope.} AND an incredibly supportive Husband] He pushed buttons that would cause major emotional pulls. He attacked my family. The health of my family. I've had 3 members of my family in and out of the hospital for the past month or so. My 21yr old cousin had a stroke. My uncle went in for neck surgery and ended up with an coronary embolism, blood clots in both legs, and e coli--and is still in and out of the hospital fighting it all. My gPapa was diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer, after having been diagnosed months back with a thoracic aneurysm and bladder cancer. To say I've had a lot to cope with is a dramatic understatement.

With all of this going on, one would think I'd shut down. 

Well, I would have thought I would shut down. 

There was probably a time in my life that I would have if I'm being real honest. I would have shut down, become angry and confused, and sulked. But, not today. Not in this time. Not where I am...physically, spiritually, emotionally, and relationally. I'm not in this life alone. I'm not living for just me. I'm not the center of my own world. I have a greater purpose. One I'm still figuring out, yet know I'm on the right path for.

to be continued.....

My World in Video: What I'm Fighting For

Use your voice

To be their voice.

Remain hopeful

& be their hope.

Help free them.

Become their FREEDOM.

This is what I'm fighting for. 

These girls, they are who I'm fighting for. 

Their stories are why I'm fighting for it. 

Through The A21 Campaign is how I'm fighting for it.

Now is the time when I'm fighting for it.

-->Here<-- is where you can join in the fight with me.

bigger than me

BIG things...no HUGE things 

are happening in my life right now. 

I'm excited, nervous, a little bit terrified, but welcoming it 
all with big ol' open arms.

For the last 2 months my small group has been embarking on a journey through a book called, Lioness Arising by Lisa Bevere. It's phenomenal. It's challenging. It's exciting. It's a wake up. At least for me. The moment I started reading the book, something inside of me started to stir. I'm not sure how to describe it really. It was this physical & emotional feeling inside me. My stomach would get that nervous, fluttery feeling every single time I started to read her words. I got excited!! I wanted to jump out of my skin and figure out what was being stirred up. (We are still reading the book, and it still happens EVERY single time).  I also prayed, and asked for prayer from my group--that this wouldn't be a selfish desire. That this would be a "GOD desire."

Lisa challenges us throughout the book to "RISE UP" and become lionesses (women who are fierce, passionate, gentle, protective, nurturing...--you get the gist-- who love & live for the Lord). I have been praying for that opportunity. To Rise UP. To take a stand. To make a difference. To be a part of something bigger than myself. To get out of my comfort zone and shake things up. To make it completely about Him and others (and put myself on the back burner completely---that can be hard for a girl who doesn't mind being in the "spotlight").

About 6 or so months ago, I started following this movement called
The A21 Campaign  (click the link for info!)

It's incredible.

 It's moving. 

It's heartbreaking. 

It's real. And, it's happening today. 

In the 21st century. 

Not just overseas. 

On our own soil. 

I had been researching ways to get involved, but kept running into 2 pretty big problems: 

(1) I live in SC 

(2) the closest office is in LA or the UK. 

Oh, and I'm definitely not a college student,

 so internships and some of the college type rally's were out too! 

So, I've been stuck. Well, limited by what I could actually DO besides praying for the girls & the people involved in the campaign. 

---->Insert a girlfriend of mine---a WORLD changing girlfriend--who has been working on the same cause. Right here. In SC. In Charleston, SC. At my church. (Somehow I missed the memo until recently!!...all in God's time right!?) The doors were starting to crack, but they weren't open yet!

I'm thinking I had to grow more. To learn more about the issues. To educate myself and ready my heart. To let God work on me to take on such a heavy issue. To get to a place where I could step outside of myself and focus on a cause bigger than me. Bigger than "my world." To humble myself and my desires and align them with His.  

Gods timing is good. No, it's perfect.

Fast forward a little bit--->I took a leap of faith & contacted my girlfriend about getting involved. And, she took me in with open arms. The timing of it couldn't have been more perfect. We are going through some "interesting" growing moments. Not necessarily "pains". Just trying to figure out how it all will look from here on out. The A21 Campaign is a huge, growing, amazing organization and we are blessed to be a part of it. No matter how big, or small, that may look. My involvement/role is still a work in progress. We are completely volunteer based at this point. However, I do know that my schooling (BBA/Marketing) has already come into play---pretty sure I just heard my parents jump for joy :). [Haven't used, nor had the desire to use, my degree in a very long time. It's hard to work doing something you are not passionate about...something you find unfulfilling-->could write a whole other blog on that!] Any who--I'm blessed and thankful that my schedule is allowing me to do this. Being a nanny, my time is pretty flexible. I have days that I can take the munchkin, and days that I can fully devote to this adventure. I just have to trust and pray that it stays this way for the season I'm intended on being there. 

The three ladies that have been devoting the majority of their time and energy to this are like the "Charlies Angels" of the cause! I'm blessed that they have taken me in & believe that I could be a beneficial addition to their team. I think God has some big things in store for us. Last night at First Wednesday (a once a month worship service at Seacoast), this feeling was confirmed. 

Our pastor talked about the different names of God and what they mean. Two resonated with me in a major way for the season that I am in...and that this new adventure is in.

Jehovah Jireh- God is our Provider. 

Yes, indeed He is. 

I fully believe and trust that during this season He will provide for our needs. He already has in abundance!!

El Shaddai- Almighty God

That He is!! 

He can do anything. He is all powerful. He is all knowing. He isn't just our Father, our Provider, our Peace---HE IS EVERYTHING. HE is ALMIGHTY! 

I will be clinging tight to both of these, especially during prayer. To take those names close to my heart. To apply them to my life daily. To TRUST that He is all He says is He is and more. To apply them to this season of life and claim this as my truth as I walk through this new doorway into A21. With the faith, hope, and beliefs that He will be our Jehovah Jireh, our El Shaddai. 

If you can't tell, I am excited beyond belief!! I feel like all that energy that was wanting to burst at the seams, has begun to leak out...in a good way. It's still there, (trust me-->it's like this non stop energy in the pit of my stomach) it just feels like I can exhale a little bit. That the doors are open, and I just have to continue to walk through them. To trust that He will be there waiting on the other side. 

I know He will be.

So, there it is. My news. My Big, HUGE, exciting news.

(to me anyways!) 

Please continue to pray for me. To pray for us as a team. 

To keep listening. To hear His voice. To trust in His timing and His will. 

To walk through doors. To Glorify Him. 

To put selfish desires behind and work only for Him. 

To use us, and this A21 adventure to Glorify Him. 

To allow His light to SHINE through each of us. 

That we keep our eyes on Him and His purpose. 

To be a LIGHT in the lives of these women. 

To allow us to be a VOICE for the voiceLESS.